Do I Make You Proud ~ Day 132

Just in case anyone was wondering…

I had to take a short hiatus from 365 being that my Internet was down. Actually, I took a short hiatus from everything that was computer related. I did take pictures during those days, but I neglected to upload them. To upload them on the computer would make me want to upload them to flickr and that was obviously out of the question.
Internet service was back on Saturday evening, shortly before I went in to work. I planned on uploading some photos after deleting a few from my memory card. Somehow I managed to change the settings on my camera without knowing it and instead of deleting pictures singularly, I wiped them all out in one shot. Gone. Vanished. Every last one.
It wasn’t so heartbreaking since none of them were what I would call fantastical and I removed all the important pictures about a week prior. Still, it left me with no photo for the 18-21st. Hopefully, it will serve as the last gap in my 365.

Back on March 2nd, I completed my STNA classes in the 97th percentile and received my certification for having done so. My state requires that I also be licensed, which means that even though I had passed every single test and completed my clinicals, I would still need to wait for the state to fit me into their busy schedule for a full exam on all the material I learned. As well, I would have to perform 5 random skills according to state mandates. The written exam wasn’t so disturbing. I was confident that I could score the required 80% or above. The skills portion was what I fretted over and dreaded. If you miss one element the state considers critical, you fail the entire portion.
April 17th, I went and took the state exam and skills test. I stewed for three days waiting for my results. I found out on the 19th that I passed.

I’ve had a habit of doing a great many things to please others in my life. Doing this was a step in pleasing myself. Still, I can’t help but hope I’ve made my Mom proud and taken direction with my life. She has been so supportive and such an encouragement during my journey to get to this place. I also hope that my Dad is proud, even though he isn’t here to say “good job” or smile to let me know he’s pleased. I know my Mom is proud and I’m sure if my Dad can see me, he’s proud too. They gave me so much…it’s only fair that I give them a little something back.


Do I Make You Proud
Taylor Hicks

I’ve never been
The one to raise my hand
That was not me
And now that’s who I am
Because of you
I am standing tall
My heart is full
Of endless gratitude
You were the one
The one to guide me through
Now I can see
And I believe
It’s only just beginning

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I’ve ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud

I guess I’ve learned
To question is to grow,
That you still have faith,
Is all I need to know,
I’ve learned to love,
My selfish part of me,
And I’ve learned to
Walk on the road I believe.

Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved
To be loved
Everybody need to rise on
Everybody needs to be loved, to be loved

This is what we dream about
But the only question with me now
Is do I make you, do I make you proud
This is what we dream about
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Stronger than I’ve ever been
Never been afraid of standing out
Do I make you proud
Do I make you proud